I got my period today. Been feeling pretty emotional—cried on my way to school when I saw some kids walking their new puppy. They looked pretty happy.
Whenever I bleed I get to thinking about all the failed romances in my life. I think about all the dates I go on with guys who just want to KEEP IT CASUAL. They’re not ready for SOMETHING SERIOUS. Don’t enjoy being serious but I do like knowing I won’t get herpes/crabs/HPV/AIDS from someone I’m fucking. Want them to only fuck me. Want it to be public knowledge. Don’t want to be just a BOOTY CALL.
Feel like my life has been turned into a shitty movie about whiny/insecure/annoying women who are exagerrated characters designed to make me feel like I’m not so whiny and bitchy compared to them.
OR IS HE? FUCK
Reflecting on my childhood, TV always taught me that the boy will get his shit together. He will call you. He will be THAT INTO YOU.
The Jordan Catalanos in my life never held my hand in the hallway. They never made amends. They just dropped me when I got all mopey and frustrated.
fuck u brby
Still working on finding a loser who will love me JUST THE WAY I AM, no matter what. Someone who VALUES me and knows he can’t do any better so why try?
i need the nick cannon to my mimi
thnx 4 the drink babe
the dancing fat albert to my allegra
shake shake shake shake shake it
this dude to my charlize theron
thnx for letting me take the spotlight
If I can’t get a Jordan, I will take a doormat. As long as he is funny/eats me out alot