You found me outside the potty/party. Maybe you thought I was sexy. Maybe you thought I was COOL.
I went into the potty with you. I don’t know why. Maybe because you had a camera. Maybe because you told me I was SEXY and COOL.
At first, I was a bit lost. It was smelly but I wasn’t too uncomfortable. I was excited. I just wanted to give you a tease/sexy pic for your website. I wasn’t quite sure who I was. I was pretending to be who I thought you thought I should. I wanted to be like all those other girls.
But then you got me to LOOSEN UP. I wanted to be vulnerable for you. I wanted to be sexy in the way that only I AM. I didn’t care that there was poo/beer/throwup/piss on the floor of this portapotty. I didn’t care that you could see the construction of my makeshift garter belt. I wanted to be real. I put my drink aside and let you HAVE ME.
can u smell me now?
Maybe my sexiness in this reeks like poo. Maybe you can put the poo aside and just see me as I am. I’ll never wash these hands. They touched a floor that helped me become who I am. I hope I’ve left my (skid)mark on ur website. I hope you remember me forever as THE GIRL WHO LET IT ALL GO IN THE POTTY AT SXSW 2009.
I wasn’t afraid to be sexy that night. I was just afraid to be ME.