I used to watch a lot of THINSPIRATION vids whenever I felt fat or just not skinny enough. Sometimes they made me feel bad about my body. Sometimes they made me want to change my diet. Sometimes they made me feel really good about my curves and thankful I had breastses and a “booty” and didn’t look like an eleven year old.
But now I’ve learned about FEEDEES.
I feel like I have discovered a missing piece of myself in these feedees (like when you discover you might be gay when you get horny from watching ur same sex). Feedees combine the two things I love most, food and sex. And not in a cliche “whipped cream bikini” kind of way.
this doesnt take me there. i need more
A feedee (and their feeder) take this combination of food and sex to a new level. It becomes about a loss of control and about finding joy in making someone else repulsive (not attractive to anyone else, only you because you made them that way).
I think I’m drawn to feedees (and potentially becoming one) because of their societal refusal to conform. Feedees genuinely feel they are beautiful. I think I just want to feel beautiful. I wonder if there is some sort of brainwashing process or if you just need to acclimate yourself to this change in mentality. I will def need a FEEDER for help, guidance and force feeding.
This is my favorite FEEDEE vid
I think I like it because it involves a POOP metaphor. The POOP is simultaneously the feedees sustenance and is representative of her WASTE. It is her source of POWER as she spreads it seductively onto her belly and eats it– it sustains her weight and it gives us visual horny pleasure to watch her eat and to watch her fat jiggle. We imagine shitting on her and then making her eat it. Our waste is her PLEASURE. Our waste is her SEX. Our waste is her POWER.
I just want to find out how to love myself. OURLOVE is about this quest. Finding my love for myself. Finding your love for yourself. If we have time, finding our love for one another. I want to be a feedee because there is a lot of love there. Even if it is PERVERSE. I don’t know if I can get there. There’s too much stopping me.